I have my final first year exam tomorrow, and it's crazy. It's crazy because a year has flown by and I've experienced so much (both good and bad), I've met new people, seen people change, seen myself change and overall (or so I like to think) I have become an enriched person. And now my outlook is: where to from here?
Three things have remained pretty constant over the past 8 or so months:
1) University
2) My job
3) Mon petit ami (and might I add, most importantly)
University has been such a whirlwind, and honestly, I am still not used to it nor do I understand it. I was prepared for it to be "different" to VCE, of course, but I did not prepare myself for the atmosphere, the like-minded people and the craziness of studying. I think what I find most different is not so much the independent learning, but more so the pace of everything. What we covered in an entire year of VCE, we crammed into 4 little months and by the time you've taken your time to understand one thing, you're about 2 weeks behind the current content. The content isn't necessarily hard, but the keeping up part is (I can say for sure though, that enjoying the units makes it 110% easier). Am I proud of how I've done over the past year? Mid-year, I would've said no. But I look back at what I've managed to juggle with my studies and I have to give myself a little credit. A job (often demanding 20+ hours of me), 20ish contact hours a week, 3 hour weekly orchestra rehearsals, weekly netball games and very occasionally a social event (and I mean VERY occasionally). All this considered, I've actually outdone my year 12 self and I didn't think that was possible.
Although I can't give myself all the credit. A large proportion is thanks to my family (I don't say it enough, but the things you have to deal with are incredible and I promise that I am ever so thankful), my supportive friends (who always deal so well with my confusion) and of course, my ever so lovely petit ami - you keep me motivated every single day and love me at my best and my worst. Your unwavering patience with me has been truly integral and I hope I make you half as happy as you make me.
So as I finish writing this to myself (I don't think anybody reads this and I am perfectly fine with that) but if you do, please feel free to leave a comment. I will most likely take a gander at your blog too, I thank life for constantly changing and I'll reflect upon you in what I assume will end up being a few months time.
